i only haf a half hr break

Ooooffff. Its TEN DAYS to PROS!!!!! *horrific look* wat am I doing online!!! Cos I am stressed lah. Words r coming out of my ears n my heas is permanently stuck in after-poppin-ecstacy-pill mode. Due to frequent shakes of the head at the sheer impossibility of passin stupid MB. Who cares abt stupid worms n company anyway. Give me jielun anyday.

Oh if only I have th guts to give myself one day break. I shall go n watch heffalump! N ms congeniality. Can do wif sm laughs now. =(

Liking somebody means that u r suddenly transformed into the stupidest being in the whole wide world.

U want to talk, but instead u sit with your old friends whom u c everyday n pretend that u r really engrossed in the conversation.

U hesitate about whether to start a conversation, though normally u wouldn’t even think twice about speaking to ur friends.

N when u finally talk, u look away as if u r distracted. N displayed passiveness n disinterest when u r suppose to just chit chat like friends will normally do.

U take forever to decide tt sending a message isn’t going to give u away. nah he cant possibly know that I like him.

U keep all the messages u receive, whether they r simply about mundane stuff or not.

U pretend not to notice him, when u r actually watching him secretly.

U really really will like to ask him how he has been, what has he been doing, but yet u cannot put ur words into action. So u just sit there like a dummy. Debating to urself. N so nothing gets done. U become about as interesting as the wall.

U pretend the tv is oh-so-exciting, when actually that isn’t what u really want to be doing.

And then u cant even bring urself to say a proper goodbye. U look at the floor. The shoes. Ur friends. until he’s gone. Then u start feeling sad. As if a goodbye is going to kill you.

And then u regret it. U wonder why u couldn’t have been the normal u. happy chatting with friends, joking, laughing, crapping.

N look. Now u aren’t going to see him again for a long long time.

How smart.

bdae treat!!!

Xiao qiang is dead. Ahhh I noe I noe I am not s’pose to b speakin in such cold-blooded tones, mz at least manage a few sniffles rite. Ok. *sniffsniff + fake croc tears* oh but seriously ah, I feel more relieved than anythg. Thx to my sis The Heroine of my life! Professional Roach-buster. Vanquished xiao qiang with a few expert flicks of her newspaper-armed hands. *phweetphweet* haha. It was reali quite horrible, the way roaches look for me. *shudder* and to tink I am the only one in my family who hasn’t graduated from the roach-busting course, they JUST have to look for me. Wat is this man, fatal attraction huh! But I did kill a roach once, long long ago when I have gotten used to the mystifyin bugs in KE hall tt leave me n xtine screaming away many many nites. Ah well. Sorry xiao qiang. There was jz no room for u in my little room. Heh

Oh yes! Anyway the main pt is not xiao qiang. Its jiabin the bin’s bdae treat!!!! *whoops with joy* ahahahah I lurrrvvvvvvvvvve it when my frens all turn 21 n hafta treat me whahahahahahah. *grinz* thx woah jiabin!!!!! n yes, we went to lao Beijing for the high tea woah! But of cos we got a shock when jiabin pointed to this small, minuscule, absolutely mz haf a 10000000x strong electron microscope to see line tt read: pls order all u like (buffet lah so we can order as much as we like! Yay!) , but the items tt cannot be finished would be charged accordingly, thank you. Oh me n junjie fainted on the spot. Cos the rest (xtine, zhengyi n jiabin) were discussing tt we shld play the “zhong shi mi ma” to clear all the weird food. N of cos, fate has it tt the only food tt me n picky jj eat r erm like custard buns, onion pancake, sm yummy noodles, n erm. Yar. Abt there lah. (blame it on our picky genes) we were deviously tinkin of how to get rid of all the food (which of cos has to include urghhhh thgs like eh sm weird flour-like thgs masquerading as fish fingers n sm green thgs tt look like appetizers). Zy calmly stuffed sm food into the finished bowl of noodles, wif the soup concealin it. Me n xtine contemplated the possibility of taking out the wet towel from the wrapper n stuffin the pretend fish-fingers into the wrapper. Jiabin suggested throwing the food into the bin behind zy while the aunties r not looking. Jj jz continued looking horrified at havin to eat all the thgs he norm don’t eat (actuali I don’t eat more thgs than him ahah. I don’t even like almond jelly!!!)

When we’ve gotten over our obsession with the unfinished food starin at us, we went into a foto-takin frenzy. *snap snap*

“quick quick!!! We must have fotos of everyone in ALL POSSIBLE PERMUTATIONS!!!” bellows zy the army commander.

N all of us scrambled ard like blind little mice to do his bidding. Nw tinking bac y r we so guai!?!?! Tsk. N reali, we took fotos in all possible arrangements whahahahah. I tink the lao Beijing ppl were cryin n tinkin we r destroying their high cls ambience. N the other patrons r like sm looking at us aghast while sm r frankly amused. Hehe. Well cant blame them we were behaving like big kids. then we went to the entrance n start makin reali poser-ish poses tt were s’pose to b artistic. Oh haha I bet the lao Beijing ppl had made mugshots of us n r planning to hurl us out of the restaurant the nxt time they c us!

After our extremely full meal (I stuffed down all the custard buns ONLY to realize they didn’t charge us for the unfinished food after all!!!! *fumes*) we went for our ktv session lor. while waiting for lihui at Clarke quay mrt, we sat down on the floor n start playin sm card game tt jiabin brought. Hoho it was reali cute! Its an uno-like game but the cards were reali pretty wif pics of diff cats on them in all sorts of poses! N zy the meanie zoomed in immediately on hideous looking pimply cat car n shouted “junjie!” ahhaha oh dear. Poor jj. The frens he has. He deserves our utmost sympathy. Haha.

Ktv was fun as usual! This is the first time tt both cliques of zy’s merged for ktv n hoho we realized we r all as crazy as each other. N when SHE’s songs came on the 6 of us were all on our feet mimickin the ridiculous actions n waving our arms madly. I tink the ktv lady who was servin us was quite traumatized by us when she came in with our drinks. AHHA. Cos we didn’t stop our absurd dance. Heh. Not bad I tink, we went thru jielun’s, fish leong’s, jolin tsai, stef sun (danced Indian dance along to her shen qi whaha) n ended wif a bang with the super old “kuai le jing xiao” hahaha. Oh super cheesie the mtv, got Lydia sum n a whole load of ppl in these 70’s sch uniforms. Actuali felt abit sad when our song session ended, cos its gg to mark the start of another looooooooooooong period b4 we all ktv 2gether again! I’m gg to haf withdrawal syndrome again. Gah n hafta mug for cas again. *gloomgloom* n I tink the whole world has started le! Wat am I doin online lor. haha. =P

Ok lah I shld try to stuff smthg into my brain b4 I slp. Else I may haf insomnia again like the last time I was cramming for cas. Panic attack due to my slackness. Heh. oh yawnnnnnn. Sheesh. Nowadays all I want to do is slp for 12 hrs every day.

Oh yar tmr I resolved to wake up n run. Wish me luck! Considerin I love my bed so much, its gonna b tough. will i, will i not? find out in the nest episode of Desperate Dieters. haha

Jia you everyone! Play hard n mug hard!

last day of being little m2s...

Hohoho!!! I am feeling like my head is being split into two. With a GIANT axe-hammer. *tap tap tap* says my head. Urgh. HowhowHOW? But I MUST write my blog today!! Theres like not much time b4 I hafta hit the books again! Btw txl is telling me the WHOLE world seems to b mugging again… why… alamak mz relax abit mah I am oredi having severe alopecia at my erhmm young age due to the xtreme stress le. =P *counts the sparse lonely remaining struggling population of hairs on my head n promptly faints* I’m gg to end up like the bookworm club’s samseng soon with three strands of hair lor. then I can ask my frens to call me san mao aka “3 hairs” le. ARGH.

Today happens to be the last lect as as m2. hoooooo I feel so xin suan suan. After today theres no more lessons for the m2 yr!!! N then soon after our pros we r all gg to wear boring proper clothes n talk boringly like sm fake docs n behave with dignity at all times le. N I prob wont see a lot of dear old frens anymore, I’d miss everyone so much!!!! Yes even those ppl who r deem “strangers” and “acquaintances” cos u noe when u haf such a smallish cls everyone jz seem so familiar liao. N I wont get to see my mugging gang anymore! Except of cos the lovey dovey lovebirds (errr actually the famous Fomite Couple cos of cos wessie is such a germ factory WAHAH) who r in my CG… oh no shermmy, cris, greggie, sennie, darrly, sheldie, mongie and michy I wont see them much anymore! N omg bimbo! My dearest pal who has been with me since pri 1 when she was jz a little tot then. We’ve been gg to sch together for donkey yrs!!! South view pri, rv, hwachong, med sch… wahhh nw I feel abit separated from her. =( n all the terrific frens I knew! Qich txl yiqing sijin ivan timo the mole Alvin hopey wo men hui hen shao jian le =(((((

Yesterday I was tokin to ah beng online n I realize tt I’d miss the squabbles btw him n ah lian. N there;d b no more sudden typical Chinese martial arts type crushing of my head by ah beng le. N no more laughing n teasing him abt his long woohoo thick hair. Haha its reali funny how we manage to noe ah beng. Hes such an atypical med student! N yet hes smart! N hes reali actuali a nice guy if u manage to look past the fierce beng façade n noe the “loyal, do-anythg-for-my-fren” beng he is. Yar lah the old-fashioned bengs lor, the kind v jiang yi qi one. In other words he’d prob a teddy bear at heart whahaha albeit one who can mutter off a whole string of vulgarities n leave u stunned for a few seconds! Hai I reali wonder hor wat if lah, wat if hor ah beng n ah lian gets 2gether huh? Haha tt will b so funny!!! Teehee erm shit ah lian’s prob gg to kill me for this. Don’t tell her hor shhhhh. *furtive look*

Haha today’s lect with prof ong wei yi made me feel a sudden rush of affection for him. He’s reali so ke ai! To tink we all started out disliking him in m1 cos he was so fierce n rattles on like a machine gun. Haha. BUT he’s reali a changed man this yr! Mebbe he’s found the love of his life or his wife jz gave birth haha =P haha but reali he’d jz start sayin smthg n start laughin! So jolly n chuckling! Like santa claus! But he reminds me of a giant teddy dear more. Haha. No more like a panda cos he wears specs. Whahah. Oh no I miss him oredi.

Oh wah today smthg mortifyin happened to me. I was jestin with xtine as usual aiyah dunno abt wat lah, then I stretch out my hand n pointed to my left n said smthg like “ni chu qu!!” n guess wat! I poked into smthg solid. I looked, n WAH! Help! It’s a person! Almost died of embarrassment. Clsmate smmore woah. n smone i didnt noe smmore. Luckily I didn’t go into hysterics n managed to apologise. Whew. Ma lu leh. hope he don’t tink I’m a perv lor. gosh. Hah nvm last day of sch le no one will noe hee. Next time I shall jz keep my hands to myself n stop making funny gestures lor. wait I poke smone in the eye how. Haha =P

Ohoh I watched a rather disturbing show today. Me, qich the poot! Bimbo, txl n Alvin were all shell-shocked as we watched the show with rapidly enlarging mouths. Mouths agape, frozen facies, wide-eyed stares. It’s the julian Roberts film “closer”. oh yar matalie portman looked gorgeous!!! Oooooo gosh it was full of expletives n there were topless girls! I was shocked lah, n huiting who was beside me promptly squealed “I am not yet 21!!!!!!” hahaha. I realize this is the first time I am seeing this kind of thg too. gosh. I feel like being 21 doesn’t mean anythg, theres so much of the world I haven’t seen. Euuugh. Not tt I want to see much of this kind of thg lah. But its an eye opener! So strip-bars r likedat . haha. Oh but the movie reali made us puzzled. How can these ppl switch partners so easily? Like wif a click of their fingers? So fickle! How does anyone reali fall in love likedat lor. disturbin leh

And txl jz concluded y we r all single n unattached. N to a certain extent I kinda agree with her. Haha. Oh well wat to do we r likedat mah, too bad lah we jz hafta wait for sm guy to zhui us whom we happen to like too! hee. Anyway I conclude tt all guys who r nice n/or gd-lookin r gays. Gosh such a waste. But they make fab buddies I bet! Cos they r s’pose to b ultra sensitive mah rite. I tink I shall jz go find a gay fren to marry when my relatives start pressurizing me. Heh. Which actuali they have oredi started. First words to me as I stepped thru the door during Chinese new yr was “wah when r u getting married huh!?!?!” *blink blink* erm I am only 21 leh. don’t stress me can. Ahaha. Aiyah theres this fren of mine ah, she ah, got this reali great guy gg after her ah. So xing fu! But she hasn’t said yes yet leh. yar lar mz haf the feeling lah. But hes sssssssssoooooooooooooooooo sweet! I’d jz propose to him lor. this type of guys ah, not a lot left leh. almost all guys these days wait for girls to go after them I tink. N they don’t dare to woo one, v dan xiao. Reali reali reali hope tt she will get 2gether with him eventually! Cos I tink they will b happy 2gether. *beams*

Aiyah qich’s sister getting married tmr!!! Sososososo exciting! N she said all ur aunties went to do their hair into curry-puff style. Whahahahaa. *envision dozens of curry puffs trotting ard happily* I suddenly cant wait for my sis to get married. Haha. Tho I’d miss her like mad n prob find excuses to go see her everyday until the hubby has to chase me away lah. Aha. =P haf fun qich!!!!

Ok I tink I want stop liao. This is like super long. Ha sorry pals I haf a lot of thgs on my mind. =P yay!!! Wan an le waoh everyone!!!

back to earth!!! i am alive! i did it! haha

I am FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREE as a BIRDDDDDDDDD!!!!
*flaps now dysfunctional atrophic wings* like WOW. I survived! My 17 days plus 5 extra days chair-glueing mugging session for my %(*^%(^&@&#@)_@^*^$%&^@%$*@@* cannot-make-it CAs. Whew. Guess wat? I got this perpetual butt ache now whenever I sit on my chair. Due to my hard stone-age plastic chair tt I sit in for 18 hrs a day muggin like crazy. (my dad confiscated my swivel chair abt oooo ten yrs ago after declaring my unchecked gleeful rollin abt was destroyin his marble floor =P) I have a strong suspicion tt my butt now has pockmarks tt correspond with the punched out pattern of my kopitiam chair. N its prob remodeled to b flat n thus I will haf no more butt to cushion my falls le. Hahaha =D And ohhhhhh I miss my blog so much. So many thgs happened tt I wanted to blog abt, but I jz cant bear to allow myself the sinful indulgence of logging on and spouting one hr’s worth of nonsense. Ahaah. But NOW is different. The next 3 days have been officially proclaimed as eat-sleep-play-slack days. *beams. NO SCHWOOK ALLOWED. It’s a taboo word on this blog now. Whhahahahahahahahhahahahah

I FINALLY watched a movie today! After 4 months of deprivation. Oh no don’t ask me why, I guess I am jz such a no-lifer and all my time seem to b devoted to thgs like preparing for cas, Chinese new yr, cas again. Or shopping lah (occasional MAH) oh but anyway we watched HITCH!!! Mebbe its jz me lah, I love mindless shows so it was extremely tickling for me haha was laughing real hard. I jz tink will smith is so charismatic. Heh. Oh n tt albert character!! Absolutely adorable. Loved the part when he chucked his inhaler then did a mad little jig across the street. Hiak. =P tts wat I call being urself n njoying it heh.

Oh yar I tink I finally redeemed myself in my own mind today! Cos tadaaaaaaaaaa I finally ranked smthg other than last in my Daytona racing arcade games! *super proud* recalled those days when I went gaming with my sis n 2 cousins, they ALWAYS beat me flat. Yucks. disgusting wat cant they give way to a young little gal lor. I can only beat them at motorcycle racing (needless to say mebbe tts y I am so excited abt motorbikes ahah) we had a showdown today. (darryl the barrel remarked tt we were unladylike hahah but aiyah who cares we both don’t have xing xiang one mah!) Firstly against wessie pessie and shaofeng the mong. I got second! Then xtine joined in (she was practically drrrrrroooooooooooooooling with excitement whaha) n I got… last. But hey! I insist its bcos my car went haywire n started crawling instead of whizzing ahead like it was s’pose to be under my superb incomparable fine motor skills! My 3rd n 4th games not bad woah! Cos I discovered TURBO POWER!!! Its when u press the yellow start button n ur car suddenly goes swooshing ahead of the rest! Real cool! Ahah. N then greggie weggorie joined in. alas. I was leadin all the way lor, then he had to keep bumping me n then edged ahead of me in the last few millimilliseconds lor. So ungentlemanly!! N he still dared to confess it was him trying to make me crash with tt smirk on his face. *tsk* oh I am addicted! But its so expensive to go arcade lor. I tink can only go once a yr leh. Else can declare bankruptcy le!

U noe, reflecting on my last horrid no-day-no-night mugging, I really really tink I shld try to b more hardworking instead of driving myself crazy with panic. Hate tt feeling lor. lucky I had my frens n family rallying ard me! My dearest sis bought me a piggy to hug while I mug. Haha. N she will talk nonsense with me to distress lah. Like there was this particular day when I felt like witty n I start making up stories of how she was a ditzy blonde but cos her hair’s black so she mz be a blackhead n then her frens mz b pimples n her boyfriend none other than biore pore pack. Eh. How cm now it sounds totally lame liao instead of witty. Haha. Though we were doubling over with laughter from NTUC rite back home ahha =P. n my mummie! Make bird’s nest for me to drink n my main source of hugs. N wow even normally gruff daddy told me it doesn’t matter if I fail, he noes I’ve tried my best (said to me when I was having sever hysterics the day b4 patho) haha I am so touched! N all my frens who msged me gd luck, u guys rock lor. so sweet hee.

oh oh HAPPIE 21st BIRTHDAY MY DARLING HUIYING!!!! another dear old fren who's joined me in the old aged foggies realm. heh. welcm abroad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!