It's my life

As a HO

You may sometimes feel unappreciated
You may feel made used of
You may think that others are claiming credit for your work
You may wonder why there are ppl who are so helpful, and yet there are just as many if not more ppl who would rather spend time telling you what to record than do it themselves
You may feel like the stupidest HO in the world
But you may also feel like you know better than Them
Your patients and their family may love you
But the drunkard next door can shout at you and ask why the hell their chapati is replaced with rice
You would have the occasional urge to kiss the nurses who are so competent and so nice and helpful and have a wonderful humour to boot
And you would have the occasional urge to sew someone's lips together or ask them what the hell they are being paid to do
You would smtimes feel very very very wronged
Especially when thgs are not done not because you are lazy, but because it was just not told to you
You would often wonder why your pay is lower than the McDonald's night shift staff
And why some ppl like the phlebotomist can be rude to you despite your ever polite tone
You may tremble with fear when you make calls to the bigshots regarding blue letters
And be pleasantly surprised when they turn out to be really nice (like the anaesthetist who took over my plug-setting on a difficult patient)
And post-calls, when you have not had sleep for 30 hrs and still have mountains of work undone and no breakfast
You may find yourself tearing after being accused of harassing the MRI staff
This is of course, on a background of not being offered any real help other than "I can help you do the prescriptions"
When you have in fact 8 discharges, two memos, blue letters, calls to consultants to review their patients, bloods to take, MRIs to trace, records to document, and results to trace.
And when the uncle you have gotten used to seeing everyday suddenly passes away
You just have to learn to blink back the tears and face the family as a professional
And at the end of the day
You learn that you are only human
Mistakes are bound to be made
Scoldings are bound to occur
Just take it, chew it, and spit it out
And just go to sleep knowing that
You have at least done your very best.


HO life can really be a trying time. Thank god for my friends.