to dearest pal deekay n my hubby haha

(I am serious, pls don’t read if u r a guy. U will die from the mushy contents. Oh ahha except ZY!! U must read. U r mentioned haha *beams* dedicated to my msn chat pal!) Smtimes we wonder y is it tt there seem to be so many great guys out there, but who r like all attached. Or why is it that we juz cant find any that we like. Or those that we like seem like its totally impossible since we dont get to see them often enough. Mentally n physically far apart. Actuali hor, our yao qiu not very high wat. To my future hubby!! You don’t hafta be very rich, in fact will b better if u r not rich, cos I tink I’d feel weird n then smhow all my yrs of learning polishes English will b forgotten in a thrice n I will be singlish-ing my way thru to ur posh frens n family… oh god how embarrassing. You don’t hafta be very good-looking either, juz normal will do! As long as u don’t look frankensteinish or draculaish… don’t act cool (cant stand it bah), b urself, not too vain ahah (cos I tink its weird to haf a hubby who fights with u for the mirror) Hafta have a big big heart!!! Love kids, animals, all thgs tt move (except roaches pls…) Can crap with me! Smone I am totally at ease with… (currently only ONE guy fren fits the bill… haha yep tts u… zhengyi-san!!!) my best fren!! Can share my woes, show u all my ugly sides (times when I want to act lian n times when I try to act snobbish, can prop up my legs without u tinkin I am so boorish etc) Not superficial, cos I am no keira knightly or those long-legged beauties! Love me juz the way I am! Whether stupid, smart, fat, ugly, pimply, bad hair-day, disgusting clothes, old shoes, out-of-style evrythg, horrid sense of fashion, cant sing for nuts, like to b violent smtimes, like to talk loudly smtimes, can b ill-tempered, can haf bad PMS etc. Be caring. Love me A LOT. Cos I am one of the most allergy-prone person I’ve ever known. One mite of dust n *PHWOAR * next moment u see me covered in bumps of all shapes n sizes. Needless to say, I look reali hideous at times like tt. Which can be quite often n most unexpected. Like tt day I got horrigible urticaria from eatin fish n chips from coffee club express. Urgh. At times like tt, I hope u wont flinch looking at me. I will b terribly sad. I fall sick easily, I tink cos I don’t take care of myself. But I DON’T like to be nagged at, unless I noe its purely out of concern for me n not cos u feel like u hafta show me concern. Of cos I will like to haf a hubby who will care for me thru the nite! N b patient, sweet, comforting, assuring…n make me feel ever so fuzzy n warm. (like …) I hope u haf the guts to jiu wo. Cos I don’t haf the guts to tell anyone I like him. Haha. N I am old-fashioned, cant stand the thot of a gal chasing a guy. But mebbe, juz mebbe, I will do it if I love u enough. =) I hope u speak Chinese. Not tt I mind, but it will b so nice to sing soppy Chinese songs together n listen to jielun together! Haha U don’t hafta share all my interests, but I reali hope tt we can do thgs together. Hopefully u r adventurous, like my best bud lihui!! Cos I am so boring tt I bore myself to tears smtimes. But frens like lihui reali inspire me to try new thgs! Like go sky-diving, bungee-jumping, parachuting… haha thgs I will nv ever dare to do I tink. I hope u don’t haf a roving eye, cos I tink I will feel insecure. I hope u r smone I can grow old with, n at the end of the day, we will juz b 2 white-haired old toddling old fogies watching the stars on top of a little hill. Not too materialistic. Cos theres so many many more impt thgs in this world than money. Humourous! I love to laugh. Hahaahhaha. Sensitive to my feelings. Esp since words can hurt a lot. Bonus if u like doggies! Haha I want a big lassie-lookalike when I grow up! Like to sing ktv! Yay! At the end of the day, I guess nothg’s more impt than loving each other. Hey deekay, I reali hope we will find wat we r looking for soon n I can then wait for ur weddin invite haha… don’t worry!!! I am sure u will get married n haf oohhhhhhh five dozen kids! Whahaha. Hey u noe wat, reali glad to have u to tok to, thz for being such a superb pal!!! *hugz*

scattered thots

this will be my last oh-so-serious blog of the yr. PROMISE. haha cos i tink i have been too sad n mopey lately. i really need to feel like seriously stupendously happy for at least 10 days consistently again. (which like, has been missing for ages) what happens when 2 out of 3 good frens fall in love? ahhh. tricky huh. esp for the third person. smtimes it gets very confusing, cos the initial feeling of "oh wow i am soooooooooooooooooo happy for my frens!!!!" bcm replaced with "uh-oh tt means i am gg to b a giant light-bulb or they r gg to make sure i dont feel left out so iam gg to b burden to them". n then subconsciously one may start to back away, drift away cos the feeling of being a giant light bulb is reali hard to ignore. n u'd juz feel like digging a hole so tt u dont have to tink abt wat to do when u feel left out/ feel like a burden. one may even try to get used to being alone so as to bcm mentally prepared to go thgs solo. aiyah cos no matter wat, couples do thgs together mah! its inevitable rite? anyway... tink tts the time when both parties have diff views n may fail to see each others' point of view. n its hard to get each other to see thgs from each other's perspective. argh. its confusing lah. when no.3 hangs out with the couple, will juz feel weird lah. naturally. n then will feel left out no matter wat. even if they r showering him/her with utmost attention. he/she will tink they r juz tryin to include him/her then feel even more worse. but if he/she tries to get away, they will tink he/she doesnt want to b frens anymore n feel hurt. but then the no. 3 will have sooooooooooooooo many different thgs to consider tt he/she cannot take it liao. make himself/herself feel better by not hangin ard so much, or make frens feel happy by still hanging ard as much. so does it boil down to a ren bu wei ji tian zhu di mie vs love ur frens n b as b4 choice? hard to ans hor. i oso haf no ans leh. mind-boggling. ok i dont feel like musing anymore. TAUFIK WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy for him!!!! ahhahaha (oh ouch dont hit me ah ting) n....... SURPRISE!!!! i VOTED for him!!!!! hahaha i like to tink tt he won cos i voted for him. *smirks* oh but of cos without my one impt vote he'd haf lost. hahaha. *big silly grin* (all sly fans: pls jump one paragraph) not tt i am particularly very very very fond of taufil lah, but i feel tt this being a singing competition the best man shld win! esp if he is gg to represent s'pore in the international arena like world idol... n i cringed n tried to hide my face when he sang my beloved jielun's an jing. Oh Gosh!!!!! heavens!!! was a nightmare after hearing jielun's spectacular live delivery juz a few b4 lor!! n yet all the judges smiled n nodded n thumped him on the back n said "well-done!" cldnt believe my ears. actuali i was shaking my head furiously n groaning with a perpetual pained expressions throughout the song, n my mom was staring at me in utmost bewilderment. sly didnt do the song justice!!! he went flat on several occasions lor... n the judges!!! *throw hands up in exasperation* i tink this is their "be nice" night, i felt tt all their comments r too full of praise n no constructive criticism was dished out at all. hahah aiyah but i am juz so critical lah. *winks* oh well all's well!!!! taufik won! YAHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! n ah beng is absolutely delighted!! msged me n totally flattened sly with a few erm choice words from his favourite ah beng range whahaha =P ho. *yawns* mr naggy zhengyi has juz instructed me to go n slp NOW so tt i will b well enuff to meet lihui tmr. YAY!!! lihui! LiHuI!!!! haha miss her lots man!!! oh stupid fever sore throat cough n gd fren froggie voice be gone. u have tarried long enuff. GRRRRRRRRRRR. oh an anonymous actuali answered my musings haha. my longest comment yet! xie xie le woah... will can kao can kao... =) I LOVE JIELUN!!!! (cant say enuff haha)