scattered thots

this will be my last oh-so-serious blog of the yr. PROMISE. haha cos i tink i have been too sad n mopey lately. i really need to feel like seriously stupendously happy for at least 10 days consistently again. (which like, has been missing for ages) what happens when 2 out of 3 good frens fall in love? ahhh. tricky huh. esp for the third person. smtimes it gets very confusing, cos the initial feeling of "oh wow i am soooooooooooooooooo happy for my frens!!!!" bcm replaced with "uh-oh tt means i am gg to b a giant light-bulb or they r gg to make sure i dont feel left out so iam gg to b burden to them". n then subconsciously one may start to back away, drift away cos the feeling of being a giant light bulb is reali hard to ignore. n u'd juz feel like digging a hole so tt u dont have to tink abt wat to do when u feel left out/ feel like a burden. one may even try to get used to being alone so as to bcm mentally prepared to go thgs solo. aiyah cos no matter wat, couples do thgs together mah! its inevitable rite? anyway... tink tts the time when both parties have diff views n may fail to see each others' point of view. n its hard to get each other to see thgs from each other's perspective. argh. its confusing lah. when no.3 hangs out with the couple, will juz feel weird lah. naturally. n then will feel left out no matter wat. even if they r showering him/her with utmost attention. he/she will tink they r juz tryin to include him/her then feel even more worse. but if he/she tries to get away, they will tink he/she doesnt want to b frens anymore n feel hurt. but then the no. 3 will have sooooooooooooooo many different thgs to consider tt he/she cannot take it liao. make himself/herself feel better by not hangin ard so much, or make frens feel happy by still hanging ard as much. so does it boil down to a ren bu wei ji tian zhu di mie vs love ur frens n b as b4 choice? hard to ans hor. i oso haf no ans leh. mind-boggling. ok i dont feel like musing anymore. TAUFIK WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy for him!!!! ahhahaha (oh ouch dont hit me ah ting) n....... SURPRISE!!!! i VOTED for him!!!!! hahaha i like to tink tt he won cos i voted for him. *smirks* oh but of cos without my one impt vote he'd haf lost. hahaha. *big silly grin* (all sly fans: pls jump one paragraph) not tt i am particularly very very very fond of taufil lah, but i feel tt this being a singing competition the best man shld win! esp if he is gg to represent s'pore in the international arena like world idol... n i cringed n tried to hide my face when he sang my beloved jielun's an jing. Oh Gosh!!!!! heavens!!! was a nightmare after hearing jielun's spectacular live delivery juz a few b4 lor!! n yet all the judges smiled n nodded n thumped him on the back n said "well-done!" cldnt believe my ears. actuali i was shaking my head furiously n groaning with a perpetual pained expressions throughout the song, n my mom was staring at me in utmost bewilderment. sly didnt do the song justice!!! he went flat on several occasions lor... n the judges!!! *throw hands up in exasperation* i tink this is their "be nice" night, i felt tt all their comments r too full of praise n no constructive criticism was dished out at all. hahah aiyah but i am juz so critical lah. *winks* oh well all's well!!!! taufik won! YAHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! n ah beng is absolutely delighted!! msged me n totally flattened sly with a few erm choice words from his favourite ah beng range whahaha =P ho. *yawns* mr naggy zhengyi has juz instructed me to go n slp NOW so tt i will b well enuff to meet lihui tmr. YAY!!! lihui! LiHuI!!!! haha miss her lots man!!! oh stupid fever sore throat cough n gd fren froggie voice be gone. u have tarried long enuff. GRRRRRRRRRRR. oh an anonymous actuali answered my musings haha. my longest comment yet! xie xie le woah... will can kao can kao... =) I LOVE JIELUN!!!! (cant say enuff haha)