poor aching feet, exciting social life. haha. rite.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha I am online again!!!! Haha after like five million yrs of abstinence cos I hafta be oh-so-guai n try to read up for the lessons so as to avoid looking like a fool during tutorials…. *grouch* doesn’t help that wes the pest (whahaha!!!) has a photographic memory n can rattle ervythg off in cls spoil mkt!!!! Bleaghhhhhhhhhhhh.

Anyway I haf now absolutely no social life. Except wif the commuters on the mrt. Haha. Ooooo n of cos the erm lets see hawkers from whom I buy food from. WOW! *wide-eyed look* wat an exciting life I lead! I am now an ah-soh in training lor. everyday mz learn a little bit more abt the techniques of grabbing seats on mrt n not being shoved away when tryin to get on an extremely crowded mrt. It’s a rough life out there lor. *wisely* I am now adept at shoving, squeezing, pushing, glaring my way thru the hordes of ppl. Haha. Aiyah. In other words, morphing into The Ugly Singaporean heh.

Hai these days I reali feel like a boring shang ban zu. Get out of the hse smtimes as early as 6.20am, smtimes get home only at 8pm. Gosh. Feel tired most of the time tt I cant rem a time when I haven’t said the words “wo hao lei!!!” to my parents aha. =P n actuali, I don’t feel like I’ve learnt lots lah. Dunno leh! seems very rushed!! Hafta learn the examination of all the systems in one day! Sorry lor I tink my brain’s the size of a pea. Haha not much space woah! How to remember… gah. But I am havin fun lah. Except tt I will usually zonk out completely once 3pm comes. Haha. Don’t bother tokin to me. I am on screen-saving mode. Woohooo!

U noe, smtimes cant help wondering if u’d end up being a gd doc. I mean, yar lah, heart’s in the rite place n evrythg, but u need to noe ur stuff reali well! N theres the emotional aspect to overcome. Aiyo. I see those frail patients I reali reali don’t feel like subjectin them to the torment of being examined by me. Cos I am so lousy! So newbie! Dunno anythg! N smtimes u r jz at a loss of words. Wat do u say to them? Evythg seems quite pointless, esp to those patients who r feelin reali bitter abt their condition. Hai.

But then, there r those who can always make u feel like the world is such a wonderful place!!! Theres this little old man we all adore. Hes so cute! He always look so happy n yet u noe its jz pains u to see him looking so frail. I tink hes reali brave. His outlook of life. Reali admire him so much. He got discharged today, will reali miss him!!! His toothless smile n the way his eyes light up when he talks to us! N then yar lah got contradicting feelins. Happy for him tt he can go home finally!!!! (hes been complainin of the horrid hospital food ahah) but yet knowing tt I wont b seeing him ever again. Oh well. Wat a selfish thot of mine. Haiyah.

Smhow, I hope tt he will be alrite. May seem impossible from the medical pt of view lah. But ppl like him deserve much much better.