i am super irritated. very pek chek. seriously. i hate it when in the midst of organising thgs there r jz a gazillion thgs tt do not go as planned. my email to osa apparently did not reach the person on charge. n yet. i know tt it definitely had been sent out. cos i CC it to alot of other ppl who did receive it. i have this sinking feeling she jz happily deleted it. imagine my shock when she told me she didnt get any emails from me n yes, it will definitely be quite hard to obtain approval for canvassing by tmr. rite. this is all i need to noe le. after bugging the grp leaders for so many times n in turn i bet they get very scared of receiving msges fr xinxin n i, tt mebbe the canvassing trip has got to be cancelled. not fair! n she jz had to breezily announce tt oh-yar-she'd-try-her-best-but-oh-so-sorry-its-too-short-a-notice. i mean yar to b fair, it is rather short a notice. but i was practically pleading le. n the email did get sent out. y did u guys have to delete it!

short fuse today. beginning to feel quite sian of this whole thg. most members r less than cooperative. n leaders r gettin scared of their members. n funding is fallin thru, wat wif so many disasters this yr the organisations r chanelling their funds elsewhere. not tt i can fault them. these ppl do need the money more than us. n ppl who r suppose to confirm if they r gg for the trip is takin their own sweet time in giving us a reply. i wonder y we r having such a hard time jz controlling the new members. our batch still ok, v enthu in fact. how abt the newbies? they seem to haf generally adopted a oh-its-smthg-i'd-do-if-i-not-gg-shopping-tt-day-lor attitude. i mean, wat is this! if u r not interested in volunteer work, u jolly well dont join any, n save the other members much grief from enduring ur heck-care attitude. i do NOT believe in herd-unity when it comes to volunteer work. if ur gd frens join, tt doesnt mean u gotta join too jz to show tt oh yea u're wif them alrite. smtimes jz feel like shouting hey u get out of my sight. gd riddance.

i wonder if this trip's gg to b a flop. lack of funds aside, i dont see any real commitment to any activities. mebbe its our fault. i dunno. but i jz dont get it. those who r not gg for the trip seems to b working so much harder than those who r gg. hello?! we r tryin to raise funds for YOU ok. not as if we got nothg better to do then ask u guys hey lets do more fundraising activites. can u pls like show us tt u understand y we r doing all these?!

the stress of tryin to tactfully let evryone noes tt its time to haf grp mtgings yar pls try to compile wateva is gettin to me. i feel like a huai ren. i noe the leaders prob feel super stressed too. but hey wat to do. the trip is like 7 weeks away! seems like NOTHG has been done yet! i smtimes get the feeling they get v irritated when i ask them to contact their members. i dont want it to b like this too u noe.

i hope tt those ppl who r lacking a certain lvl of maturity will not b gg for the trip. hah pls, plan ur holidays elsewhere. i dont want my last visit to the country b marred by visions of u ppl behaving like irresponsible teenagers wif no regard for punctuality n wateva.

i hope those who have worked hard pls. do go for the trip. wld nv regret it.