We used to be such gd friends, as thick as thieves, as sticky as glue. Now we settle for the occasional times we bump into one another, filled with periods of unanswered msges.

I wont deny I am bitter, angry even, and more than sore and upset. I wonder why this happens again and again. I may be at fault too. I dunno.

I have friends, true, ppl I laugh with everyday. they fill my life with so much joy. But its never the same. Cos every single person we meet and befriend, they bring smthg special into out lives. For you it happened to be lots of warmth and laughter and just that special caring touch. I missed that.

And isn’t it extremely sad that we seem more like civil acquaintances now more than anythg else.

I bet u tink I am really happy. Mebbe even tink I am heartless cos I seem to get on fine without you eh? But if its really the smiling façade u fell for, then perhaps we weren’t as close as I ever thought we were.

I am surrounded by friends, ppl I care for. But smhow I feel like the loneliest person in the entire world each day I get home.

We seem to have nothg much to say to each other anymore.

Perhaps it just cos we are both such stubborn ppl. We don’t like to make the first move do we? We just like to think ho so-the-other-don’t-need-me-well-i-shant-bother-to-contact-the-person-then.

Mebbe theres major happenings in ur life. Mebbe u r busy dealing with stuff and don’t really have time to look for me. Lots of mebbes. I don’t know anythg abt ur life anymore.

Smone asked how did it bcm like this? I was at a loss for words. A combination of a loss of the “need” factor on your part, ego problems and insensitivity.

I hate it when my msges go unanswered. And after awhile I just wont bother anymore.

It may not matter much to u, wat sounds like a grp msg asking if everyone is free on a certain day, but I happen to be waiting for a reply.

And there were many others too. Those tt u said u never did receive. A part of me acknowledge tt may b true, but the petty me tells me tt its too much of a coincidence tt all 3 or 4 msges were lost in the satellite system.




I realized I depend just a tad too much on my friends. Not just anyone though. Only the closest ones matter. But they always seem to matter too much. I cant seem to get it in my thick skull that nothg stays the same forever. Nothg.

How I wish that smhow smday, I find that real best friend who never goes away.