dead-beat

i am having the sniffles.

doing Infectious Disease posting now, hope i don't get any funny bug that decide to leech on to me! but i have localised the bug spewer, must be xtine! better stay one foot away from this girl. ha.

ooo gemisya are you syahida?!!? hello! ha =P

this has been a rather crazy week, i wasn't mentally prepared for ID to be a fierce kind of posting, i was happily imagining myself sauntering home at 2pm everyday, imagining a life of napping and tv shows. boy was i in for a shock! perhaps all these wonderful illusions were fueled by seniors' reassurances that ID was "nothing to do one, very slack, can go home and study! don't go for clinics not useful one!". *gloom* in the end, the ID tutors have caught on to the fact that there were virtually no med students around. we are now despatched to separate hospitals and allocated personal tutors each AND given a log sheet for tutors to sign just so to ensure we do not perform our favourite magic act (disapparation). sigh!!!

ok but don't get me wrong. i really love my ID posting thus far. SGH ID tutors are fantastically wonderful people! well, at least two of them definitely are! my tutors dr kang meiling and dr tan thaun tong were such enthusiastic people! it's rather rare to see tutors who want to give us tutorials everyday and in fact, engage in little "time tussles" between the two of them to see who we should follow first. hah! aw. my group felt very loved. hah! and the teachings were good too! we learnt alot about internal med, not just ID alone. and it was more of an approach-based teaching, so it really got our rusty brains working. the rusting process has been temporarily halted. however, much as i love my ID tutors, i can't see myself as an ID physician. barely a week has passed and i am developing serious itch! reminds me of derm posting! i think i have a psychological aversion and paranoia of germs.

i realised there are many people who have retroviral infections who are just among us. it may be the uncle/auntie you sat with on the bus, the canteen vendor, your neighbour... it suddenly hit me that it's really not a disease that's endemic only on the other side of earth. hmm. i do pity them, it's really a "death sentence". and somehow the disease is so stigmatized i believe public consensus would be to adopt a disdainful attitude towards these people. however, there are people who are just unlucky lah. not all infections are associated with promiscuity after all...

i can never remember the different bugs antibiotics cover. seriously it's so confusing. i wish there was a wonder pill that eliminates everything and that no bug is resistant to! argh.

i am suffering from severe sleep deficit.
early in the week just as i was trying to get over the shock that ID is not a slack posting, my dad developed an irregularly irregular heartbeat which really scared me witless. it's terrible! and my mind just blanked out there and there. it's really not a feeling i care to experience again. and you know the thing about parents is, they really do behave like kids sometimes. no amount of cajoling or scolding of gentle persuasion could convince my dad to go to A&E. i was really frustrated by then. and furthermore he was spiking a fever and had a warm erythematous knee joint! haiyo. it was only when i threaten a cold war did he accede.

sometimes i wish my sis was around more. i feel the stress of trying to make sure everyone is healthy and happy. =( being a kid was so much easier.