Heaven Knows

“She’s always on my mind…”

He had me at those words. Never heard such a heart-wrenching rendition of this song that I like so much. Its was bittersweet, touching and really really did tug at my heartstrings. Doesn’t matter that he cant mesmerize the crowds with his eyes or charm them with suave well-timed moves, he was my idol definitely.

I was really upset yday when I watched Superstar. It was only my second time watching the show, and to tell the truth I wasn’t rooting for anyone in particular. Of course I have heard those many rumours flying around abt how nice junyang is, and how sm have said that weilian got through by sympathy votes. But I guessed my lack of exposure actually made me a more impartial judge of who actually performed better on the day itself rather than be influenced by preconceived ideas.

I wasn’t impressed by their first songs. Cos both didn’t do their best I think. But what outraged me was the hint of biasness I detected on the part of the judges. I mean, yes its true I agree that most ppl wont be able to accept the idea of a visually impaired person bcming a superstar, and yes they do have their years of experience dabbling in music BUT there are some obvious facts that practically are screaming at us laymen who don’t know as much. Such as the fact that it is a fact that jy sang off-key very obviously, and yet still got higher marks than weilian.

But it didn’t stop there. I mean, no hard feelings but I really felt that the English song performance definitely showed weilian as the better performer at least in that segment. What I couldn’t fathom was how far the judges will go to influence the audience into tinking that jy was ready to be a superstar while weilian was doing evrythg wrongly, like emotions lah, technique lah, blah blah blah. I was really really really shell-shocked at the injustice of it all! I mean, I have no idea whether all these rumours abt the judges are true, but it definitely seem as though they are not unfounded.

In fact I suddenly felt that the world (esp Singapore) is a really ugly place to live in. you don’t let smone who is handicapped into a competition to give him a chance to prove himself only to oppress him when it seems likely that he will succeed. Does it really matter so much that he is blind? I mean, pls ppl lets try to be moe flexible. You judges kept saying he doesn’t really walk the stage. Why don’t u ppl try putting urselves into his shoes? He cant see!!! Much as he will like to walk the stage beam at audience blow kisses at them and wink he cant! Can we ever imagine how scary it would be to walk alone in the dark, with absolutely no idea where u are heading for, no idea whether the next step will bring you tumbling down the stage? I have never seen such unreasonable people. If the stage presence is really so very important, then perhaps you guys should have made it clear right from the start that this isn’t really a competition for weilian. But since you guys let him in, hey! Be fair! You cant do this you know, trample all over him just cos perhaps he isn’t really superstar material since fans may not take well to a blind man. (ok I admit this part I sort of deduced it myself it is not based on any evidence lah)

I felt really upset lah. Especially when I realized that never once did weilian seem affronted or taken aback or angered by the unkind remarks made by the judges and their absolutely weird scoring patterns that seem to gloss over all the imperfections in jy’s performances while magnifying every single little mistake (or non-existent mistakes) made by weilian.

Pls don’t tink I feel sympathetic thats why I am saying all these things. I for one haven’t followed the competition and also actually thought that jy should win before I started watching the show. It’s the pure singing talent of weilian that got to me, and made me realized that if not for the fact that he is blind, I doubt there would have been as much controversy over who should be the eventual winner.

I was so indignant over the judges remarks that I voted for weilian twice. I mean, for smone as level-headed and giam as me to actually bother to vote, this really does say smthg. If based purely on the performance during the finals, weilian definitely did better. And the better man deserves to win.

I didn’t really look forward to the results show today. Cos I was thinking it seems like a foregone conclusion who has a bigger fan base and to tell the truth I was feeling very cynical abt Singaporeans, thinking that they would never be so open-minded as to let a blind man win smone who’s handsomer, more charming and who has a gd voice to boot. But yet sm sadistic part of me wanted to watch the final outcome so that if weilian was booted out, I can be openly cynical abt my fellow Singaporeans.

But it turned out to be a really great surprise instead. Within seconds I was hugging my sister and jumping up and down and sobbing into tissues. It was a great triumph, and I thought it said a lot abt Singaporeans if they actually voted the best man in regardless of his handicap. I was touched. Really. And really delirious with happiness over smone who already has suffered so much in life but yet was brave enough to subject himself to this mental torment of a long and arduous competition. I salute him!!!

And now my faith in humankind has been fully restored. (until the next showdown btw male and female that is…) I am so happy! It must be a really really important milestone in his life that he had made it so far. And to realize his ambition of releasing a single! Gosh. I think if “heaven knows” is included I will go and buy it. Haa. =DDDDD

Yippee!