u noe, smtimes i wonder how cm sm ppl in this world can just b so insensitive. mebbe they didnt mean it, mebbe they meant it. but wateva the case, words spoken can never be taken back. the terrible words once uttered will remain a lingering memory in the recipient's mind. n smtimes, when the insensitivity has gone on for so long, it just stops hurting anymore. ok, mebbe not. but for me, anger has long replaced hurt. for it is far more easier to deal with than feeling hurt n vulnerable all the time. especially since the ppl who normally hurt us the most are the ones who r closest, dearest to us. this has been a very very very long wk. alot of unpredictables tt happened, sm happy, others juz plain sad. v v v v v v v v v sad. its a wonder how life can just turn topsy turvy in just one nite huh? within a wk, from depressing to undescribable happiness to the-end-of-the-world. i cannot even begin to understand how terrible tt feeling is. i can only try to empathise, but u noe wat? i tink i can nv even begin to imagine wat kind of life tt must be. be strong my dear friend. will always always b here for u, no matter wat. smtimes i feel like i am too lucky for my own good. life is juz so simple n happy, without any major bumps or hurdles i have to cross. when the biggest troubles i will ever get is pondering over results n my white hairs n my balding syndrome n my lack of prince charming. smtimes life is so unfair. smtimes i tink i am a terrible friend. to tink my fren has been suffering so much for so many yrs n tt i fail to pick it up. haf bouts of depression tt i dont even noe abt, haf serious issues to come to terms with tt i cannot even fathom was on his mind. n to haf finally accepted wat is to be, embraced life again, n then to lose it all in a twinkling of the eye. i am disgusted with the world at this moment. y do thgs haf to turn out like this. y the good nice ppl nv get their happy endings. y one's life has to be dictated by others' expectaions of oneself, y one's happiness cannot involve juz oneself. whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy. i want to give my fren a hug. *HUGZ* love u, b strong.