happie birthDaY sInGapoRe!!!! heh

hoi! haha i am finally back home and well-rested enough to blog. hmm. seems like a looong time since i last came online... oh well, so many thgs have happened since then! dunno where to start.

fisrt day of sch came n went, nothg pretty exciting happened lar. took an immense effort of xtine's and my part to keep ourselves wide-awake and not doze off during the lecture! gosh. seems funny to be in lt 28 leh, i keep wanting to walk into lt 29 heh. had a looooonnnnnng 4-hr break before the afternoon prac thgy starts, actually wanted to go help out with presentation, but smhow we hafta settle sm movie-screenin thgy (i was of no help anyway being the techie idiot muahah) and then i ended up marking sm jc bio tutorials with xtine... *MOAN* wahhhh her tuition kid's thoughts run ALL over the place! wanted to scream and cry, smtimes feel like rolling on the canteen floor (cos u will reach a breaking pt whereby u cant get more frustrated than u already r, so u hafta laugh of juz explode =P)! tink alot of ppl were looking at the pair of us in horrified silence, eyes almost popping out of the sockets! (cos they tink we r mugging already ehhehe) gah, dont care xtine u gotta pay me for all my effort! heh i must admit i was quite evil when i was marking the paper, cos i wasnt the tutor mah, not scared of offending the students... hiak. *rubs hands in glee* tink xtine was quite horrified (in a laugh-and-cant-stop kind of way) when she first saw the remarks o wrote haha... cant rem wat tho, just tt i was extremely blunt n corrected even her grammar mistakes heh. oops.

the afternoon prac was... a joke. sigh. gosh i shld haf went hm to slp juz like ah ting! only thg we did was to fill in sm pls-give-us-ur-particulars form! eeuuugh. since i knew almost everythg abt ah ting, was able to help her fill in lor... haha. and then we were dismissed! all of us were lookin at each other with incredulous, "DUH" looks hehehe. but ok lah i was in a great mood cos tt means i can go hm n get a gd rest liao, my head was again spinning like a spinning top.

went hm, didnt slp well tho! cannot believe myself, smtimes i feel like just squashing all the conscience out of me! cos i cant slp due to guilt attack! was being eaten alive by guilt, tinking how cm i never stay back immediately after sch to go help with presentation, esp since my gd frens sherm n wes were so stressed. wah but i really really cant do it! didnt noe flag-week will drain me so! so in the end i was tossing in my bed for two hrs, hah! gross. i was disgusted with myself.

woke up, rushed to lot1 to pack dinner for shermy, wessie, darryl amd shermy's mom. rushed back hm, heaved my dozens of bags and barung-barung and dashed down to the busstop to wait for yiqing (who's driving me down YAY!!!!!) kept looking at my watch, wondering if they will die if hunger before i reach... wah. really i wonder y i am such a stickler for thgs like tt! such a worrywart! smone slap me pls...

anyway, yiqing, ah ting n me reached nus at ard 830pm bah. when we reached the medsoc rm area, evrythg seems under control, but the shermy n wes were still pacing ard looking busy. the 3 of us tried to look for thgs to do, but erm ahhaa most of the time we just felt redundant. tink wat can be done has already been completed... ok, was feelin less guilty. =P soon sheldie arrived too n we were watchin the red m&ms and brown gingy-bread men and sunshine-yellow candies dancing abt, being twirled, lifted, thrown... WOW. i keep wanting to sink my teeth into the m&ms, they look so real!!! doesnt help tt i am such a fevent chocoholic hehe. its all thx to my frens tt the m&ms were not traumatised ny me whew.

hmm looking the the gingybread men, i must say they r not plump enuff lah. their heads were quite big, but their legs were not fat so they look abit unproportional. they look like the "after" version of sm slimming centre campaign... heh i shld be the one inside lah tink i will look more ... erhmm "before". they look really cute when they smile!!! (will put their hands to the mouths n look really shy and abashed! =D)

n so there we were for the whole night, not slping and occasionally doing odd jobs like carrying stuff and mending the backdrop...oh yar introduced yiqing to her counsellee zhongkai!!! ahha felt reali happy tt they got along so well! turns out tt they have alot of frens in common, smmore both r such nice and easy-goin ppl, n r both sporty! yay! felt like i have done a gd deed... *beams*

as the night drags on, there were times i reali felt like slping. but then after a cup of nice yummish instant noodles i felt rejuvenated! haha was past the slpy stage n on to the hyper stage liao... but evryone's slpin leh. xtine has conked out, greggie's plannin to slp, cris is at hm cos she sprained her ankle (*pat*) and dunno where the rest r lah. cm to tink of it i cant rem wat i did leh. *tink* oh yar only remembered helping to tpt the backdrop from outside medsoc rm to the field! wah. almost died. didnt noe cloth can be so heaaavvvvyyyy. haha anyway the guys carryin the poles looked hilarious!!! we can only see their heads, haha as charmaine said, they look like they r marching to the execution ground... *chuckles*

after tt the actual rag day came all too quickly. all the candies were made-up and went to prepare for performance, and all sleepyheads were woken up! had breakfast n off we go to the spectator stand! woohoo! erm. only there were so few ppl there initially we felt quite disheartened. dunno leh, not tt i am angry or want to scold the freshies, but feel tt alot of ppl seem to bo-chup the faculty... its always the same old ppl turnin up to help n support the faculty events! (n i must say a heartfelt thank you to gigante n luciano... seems always to b ard! tho we r actuali flag-ogs) felt my spirits lifting as more ppl turn up! but the cheerin was.. alas dismal. only a few dare to shout out the cheers! its always been my personal opinion tt it only takes a few ppl in the batch to b super on, then the rest will follow suit... but tt day was like only the seniors were cheering. =( so medfac was super quiet, since most of us seniors had not much voice left anyway!

towards the end got abit better bah, with so many grandseniors coming back to hype up the freshies! did the "panado, antiseptic cream, viagra" cheer and the "kick gluteus maximus, slap buccinator, poke conjunctiva..." cheer with gusto! heh. enjoyed myself immensely tho the cheers will prob not mean a thg to the non-meds...

when it was out turn to perform, the whole med crowd surge as one towards the barricade to cheer them on. the performance was FAB! not a step out of place, and the costumes really make us swell with pride... to tink they were all hand-made!!! countless hrs spent by the rag ppl painstakingly sewing the colourful and creative costumes needle by needle, thread by thread. i loved the music too, esp the ending piece (wake me up before you go!), one of my fav oldies! haha. must admit its gonna be a tough fight btw medfac n law tho... law really put up a spectacular performance this yr! *tense*

after med's performance i sorta lost interest liao. quite worried abt the outcm of the competition. not tt winning is tt impt to me lah, but i cant bear to see the disappointment and dejection on the faces of the rag ppl who have worked and toiled so hard for the past few weeks just for the 10 min in front of the judges. sherm n wes who had attended long n dreary rag mtgings with nussu, the m2 choreographers who had repeated practices with the performers, the performers who prob danced til their feet were sore, the same grp of ppl whom i will see bending over sm piece of sewing with utmost concentration everytime i pass by...

the result was finally announced. law faculty has beaten us to the trophy. xtine n i looked ard, saw the sadness brimming in everyone's eyes. wanted very much to go n console wes n sherm, but dunno whether we shld go, cos they were with the rest of the rag ppl. at tt moment, i really felt terribly sad. and even more heart-wrenching was the fact tt everyone was tryin so hard to be brave abt it. there were no sobbing, no wailing. just silent tears tt kept sliding down the faces of sm. hugs were given, tissues were offered. at the end of the day, we lost, but in the most graceful way possible. there were no complaints abt the decision of the judges, no lamenting our ill fortune, no blaming of anyone. just calm, dignified acceptance. i was very much overwhelmed by the seniors who kept spirits up by cheering and we did the medicine cheer a few more times, just to tell the world: its ok, we're alright. in our loss we find strength, we find unity, we find a common sadness that keeps us tightly bond together. never mind, we can always do it again next yr!

to wes n sherm n all the rag ppl: u guys rock!!!!

finally reached hm at 4++pm. slept from 5.30pm to 8.30am, 15 hrs of blissful, uninterrupted slp. so weary tt i didnt even wakey for dinner! amazing. ah. but was quite sad to awake n find my voice gone, feelin feverish and had sooo much phlegm it was killing me. needless to say, the rest of the day was spent mooching abt the hse looking miserable. didnt even have voice to speak to anyone.

today wasnt much better. the phlegm factory's been hard at work, me coughing like an ah ma now. cant even go NDP tonight to support my sis!!! to tink this is the first time i have ndp tix n i'm stuck at home... grrrr. with both me n my mom sick smmore. wat is this man. sigh. sorry sis. gd luck for ur performance!!! u can do it!!! love ya!!! *hugs*

hey rita!!! haha wow the name of ur blog suits my current situation. phlegm. ehehee. great to c u!!!! shld pop to ur bloggie now... argh, ok. too lazy to spell check, bah.