rojak feelings

help. i am depressed. trying to get it out of my system now by toking to xtine.... GAH. help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! feel like banging my head against the wall and sobbing out loud. WHY must it happen to me????? its not fair, not fair at all. *gloom* how huh xtine. is there any way out if this uncalled for and absolutely repulsive mess tts my life now! i feel so unhappy. =(   its like a thorn in my flesh. i want to pluck it out but dunno how to do it without making it worse... pls smone tell me wat to do! i haf this constant feelin of SUFFOCATION, cannot take it anymore. pls pls let me keep my cool and not do anythg foolish like slappin the person.

 
ahhhhhhhhh. thank god for frens who can crap with me n make me tink this whole thg is more tolerable. heheh feels good to chat with my ex-KE hostelmate maojie aka HIMBO!!! whahaha very thick-skinned guy hiak whos super easy to tok to... likes to wear hairbands n walk all over the place hehehe... oops i havent bought him a pink sequinned hairband as i promised! hey xtine lets go shop for his hairband tmr hahaha... =P saw peiya today when i was gg to sch too!!! miss her soooooooooooo very much!!! one great gal who has a really infectious and bubbly laugh!!!! wahhhhhhhh i miss the hostel days... when me n xtine will race down the corridors n do stupid thgs like play sm string game outside our rooms the eve of our tests... heheh case of nerves! and how we loveeeeeeeeeee to disturb peiya n yuanting whenever we pass their rooms to go toilet... and the toilet tt REFUSE to open esp when u r in urgent need... and how xtine the se lang will always try to catch a glimpse of her ke shuai ge ahhahahahha.... and how our ears always get blasted off by music from himbo's rm!!! sigh. how cm it feels like such a long time ago?

hmmm *tinktinktink* got another comment for an anonymous, aiyo i am all confused lah dunno if its the same person! anyway, i am not judgin or anythg lah, but i seriously haf very bad vibes abt Boy. tink hes out for fun only u noe? and Girl A is very very very very very close to me, she dont deserve to b hurt again. i noe its hard to say whos wrong and whos rite in this kind of thg, cos cupid will strike without warnin n stuff, but juz sayin tt this guy is seriously nt the kind u will trust ur gd frens with! yepp...

oh yar maggie!!! ahha welcm back hm, reali glad to noe ur holiday in nuh is over!!! yippee!!!! =D ehhh i dunno how to link ppls' blogs to mine leh, ahha can teach me?? so sorry...

penning off, want to thank my burmese ko ko (brother) for sending me another letter so soon. really makes my day!i feel very happy and touched to be remembered! *warm feelin* actually myanmar seems like such a long-ago experience now, smtimes i wonder if it actually took place. the carefree-ness. the laughter. the joy? hard to believe we haf only been back one mth and evrythg was just like before already. life goes on. 

 
"Love each other or perish. Without love, we are birds with broken wings."
                                                                                                                   - Tuesdays with Morrie