aunt agony=me!

wow i woke up at 2pm today. wat an amazing feat! havent done tt in donkey days liao.... previous day only slpt for 4 hrs smmore.... hiak.

am in reflective and silent mood today (cos i lost my voice liao!!!!! ARGHHHHHHH torment!!!!!!!!!), becoming even more so as i continue Tuesdays-ing with Morrie... really a very very good book, almost forgot how much sense the book talks! (thx hope for lending me ur book a lonnnnng time ago heh) hey for ppl who have not read it, GO READ IT!!!!!!!!!! will do loads of good!

talked to smone for a long long time in the afternoon, was acting as aunt agony. the name of this person shld remain undisclosed for privacy reasons. hmmm. lets call her Girl A. Girl A likes Boy who is attached to Girl B, and Boy likes Girl A too... so they r sort of together now, which makes Boy a two-timing jerk and Girl A a third party. sigh. if i didnt noe A i would prob hate her and tink she's a terrible person to have gotten involved with Boy. but i guess things get complicated when A is such a good good friend of mine whom i really know very very well, and shes simply not the type of person to do this kind of thing!!! *headache* but i cant convince myself wat shes doin is right either, yet when i try to rationalize thgs out for her it just seems to get even more complex... hmmm. to quote her, "shit happens". but as i said, so shit does happen in life, but i guess its up to us to either duck, dodge the flying shit and flush it down the toilet bowl or to smear it on  our faces... (ok sorry guess i am quite gross) so it wasnt planned and never in her wildest imagination had she dreamed tt she will fall for a guy whos attached, but c'mon its still wrong for her to be involved. *tinktink* guess falling in love does make us irrational ppl bah, but i feel tt Boy is really such a JERK! i mean, either way he has his path planned out already. he can continue two-timing the 2 girls, or if he choose to break up with his girlfriend, theres already another girl waiting for him mah. fingers itching to slap him. (to clarify, i am normally a super not violent and passive person unless i feel strongly abt smthg) tink hes too smooth lor! hey c'mon make up ur mind who do u love? not tt i do not believe we r incapable of loving more than one person at any time in life, but hey! not being fair bah, esp since we live in a society who swears by monogamy! Girl B will be devastated to realise she has been two-timed, n will hate Girl A too and meanwhile Girl A will be upset for each day Boy and Girl B has not spilt up. *sigh* and the guy will meanwhile haf the best of both worlds!!! (ok i am itching to hum-tum him again) but yet i really find it hard to dish out advice. cos one never knows wat will happen in the future rite? wat if he really turns out to be The One for Girl A.... and if Girl A really nv takes the plunge then she wont ever really noes. but if she does, so many ppl will get hurt!!! wahhh life is full of contradictions. 

anyway, talked to Girl A abt alot of other stuff, and thru talking i realised tt i really haf alot of wise-sounding thgs to say. hmm. amazing. thoughts i nv thought i have in my mind juz spilled out easily as if i have been meaning to say them all this time... weird rite? =P

to end off, let me share yet another very meaningful quote from Tuesdays with Morrie:
Learn how to die, and you learn how to live.

" ... most of us walk around as if we're sleepwalking.we really dont experience the world fully, because we're half-asleep, doing things we automatically think we have to do.

and facing death changes all that?

oh yes. you strip away all that stuff and you focus on the essentials. when you realize you are going to die, you see everything much differently.

... we're deficient in some way. we are too involved in materialistic things, and they don't satisfy us. the loving relationships we have, the universe around us, we take these things for granted."

hmm how sad it will be to only realise you have lived all your life chasing the wrong dreams and wrong stuff when you reach the end of the journey. and worse if you still don't realise it after life passes on... wah ok sounding abit morbid liao but very very true. til then folks! =)